As many of you have guessed, by either my recent inspirations or the lack of his title lately, the boyfriend and I have broken up. After a year and a half, we decided that where we were heading and the way we were getting there was just not the best for either of us. For whatever reasons my best friend and I started growing apart and were no longer acting as the great allies that we once were for each other. While we both wish it could have gone the other way I know that deep down we both agree that this is the best thing for us at this point in our lives.
My heart is heavy. I'm losing a best friend. The person i have turned to first every day for the last year and a half. The person that has taken better care of me than anyone else. The person that could make me laugh at the first sign of sadness. The person that took my breathe away and made me feel more loved than I have ever felt before. The person that has been by my side, constantly, consistenly. That's the hardest part. The selfish part. I'm sad for everything I am losing.
My head is going crazy. Mostly for everything I'm giving up. I'm giving up a future of knowing that someone would ALWAYS be there for me. I'm giving up the person I know in my heart will be the most amazing and selfless life partner and father. I'm giving up my biggest supporter. There have been moments I feel insane for willingly giving up this person. He is truly amazing.
Lastly, and luckily, my head and my heart are hopeful. I am hopeful that while I am losing and giving up all of these things, that I am also gaining many things. I am gaining some much needed independence. I am gaining strength through all of the heartache and pain and standing up for what I need. I am gaining peace, where anxiety and tension had temporarily moved in during those last months. But most of my hope still lies with him. I hope he will be ok. I hope he is gaining everything I am and more. I hope he heals and finds a better and more deserving counterpart. I hope he gets everything he wants and needs. And still, I hope he will be my friend again. Someday.
i love your positive attitude, hope all goes well <3
ReplyDeletewow....I know where you're coming from. Heartbreak is tough but temporary and time heals all. And who knows...this could actually be an act against destiny. But you'll soon find out. What is meant to be will be. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteawe sad, but i have always thought if it's meant to be... it will. if it's not, you were at least meant to have each other when you did, and now it's time to move on to the next page in your book!
ReplyDeletethinking of you in what i know is a confusing/hard time.
Aww my love, I am here for you if you need anything... I know the feeling and I love that you are keeping so positive about the situation... Can we run away together?!
ReplyDeleteHow beautiful! WEird that I saw this... I posted my breakup post today too.. :(
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are so similar to yours, losing a lot but gaining more in the long run - we hope. Much love & much peace!!!
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I had a feeling & have been keeping you close in thought. I know how bad it sucks and how very very hard it can be. Cry when you need to, laugh when you can't imagine anything being funny & spend lots of time with friends who love you. Please keep the faith that it will get better & easier over time. Nobody ever believes that, but it will. I am living proof that happiness can come and slap you right in the face and take over your life when you least expect it. I am hoping happiness will do the same for you soon, sweet girl! I am thinking of you! xo
ReplyDeleteI know how you're feeling, take care of yourself and everything will be ok <3
ReplyDeleteYou are so positive and inspiring- keep the faith, girl! good things will come your way :) xo
ReplyDeletei've been through the exact, EXACT situation. and it was for the better. i gained a lot from it, like you. this post brought me back.
ReplyDeleteOh, I am so sorry. Break ups are so hard. You have a wonderful, positive attitude, though. Everything is gonna work out perfectly in the end.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for you! Hope you'll feel better soon.
ReplyDeletei hope for all the things you wish for come true. i know how hard it is to break up, my own BF and I have broken up twice.
ReplyDeleteyou sound like you are in a positive space right now, hope your heart heals quickly
i have never commented on your blog, but i have been a silent follower for a little while. while reading this post, my heart went out to you. this is never a fun place to be, but your attitude is amazing and i wish you all the best.
ReplyDeleteYou just made my current situation a lot easier, I no longer feel alone. Thank you
ReplyDeleteI am currently going threw a similar situation, and your right. I need to find my own independence. I need to learn that there is life with out him.
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