This morning, I woke up to 20 texts and about 50 facebook notes all wishing me a happy birthday. Just when I didnt think I could feel any luckier or more loved, I checked my email. I had one personal email from my dear friend Kait, who I used to live with. Yesterday I just happened to be wishing she could be here for my birthday like she has been the last two years. I specifically loved the notes she gave me on both of those days, especially the first one, I still remember what was in that short but very full letter. It just stuck. So here I am, groggy eyed, squinting at my computer screen and there it is, my birthday note from my dear friend that is traveling all the way around the world at the moment. I melted at the realization that she took the time to write me ON my actual birthday morning, right after I was yearning for a note from her. The PS she left me with left tears running down my newly 25 year old face. If I could start everyday like I did today...Id be the luckiest person in the world!
Here's what she wrote me...
"P.S. Since I've been traveling, a lot of people have complimented me on my ability to choose laughter over fear or anger. I want to let you know that you taught me that when we lived together, and it makes everything better. Don't forget what you taught me, and teach it to others."
> "I want a life that sizzles and pops and makes me laugh out loud. And I don’t want to get to the end, or to tomorrow, even, and realize that my life is a collection of meetings and pop cans and errands and receipts and dirty dishes. I want to eat cold tangerines, and sing out loud in the car with the windows open, and wear pink shoes, and stay up all night laughing, and paint my walls the exact color of the sky right now.
I want to sleep hard on clean white sheets, and throw parties, and eat ripe tomatoes, and read books so good they make me jump up and down." -Shauna Niequist
1. My new friend Hunter is a great co-pilot and all around awesome guy! 2. My friends know how to find super radtastic camp spots! 3. Dexter was MADE to camp! He loved it! 4. I dont hate charades after all. 5. Real-talk is better in a tent. 6. I adore Oregon. 7. Having your brother officiate your wedding ceremony is a pretty special thing to witness. 8. Carnival weddings are more fun than not carnival weddings. 9. Long solo drives are like meditation for me! 10. I am one lucky person, I have so many unbelievable people in my life.
I am off to go lake side camping this weekend with the whole friendship crew. I am very excited for some much needed relaxation and outdoor bonding with some of the most amazing people I know. I am bringing the puppy this time! It will be his first time camping, I dont think he knows whats comin! Then Sunday, I leave straight from the tent to go shoot a wedding. I cannot tell you how excited I am for this one! Ill see you babes on the flipside!
Enjoy your weekend.
And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. Kahlil
august is my favorite month. it is just different than all the rest. better. it is where my birthday lives. it is when the best kind of heat shows up. it marks an end and a beginning. i just adore august.
Im shaken. Completely rattled. In a good way. Im in love with life and its unexpected turns. Its tossing me around and im tumbling beautifully, just enjoying the ride. Im so happy its hard to breathe. This happiness halts me, physically stopping me in my tracks, and forces me to take it all in. I feel like the luckiest person in the world right now. Not everything is going right though, there are things going wrong, failures occurring, and things being neglected, but everything is wonderful. Every single thing is beautiful. My perspective is perfect. Every misstep, is still a step. A step in my direction, whatever that maybe. Its nice to take my foot off the gas for a while on this journey, slowing enough to appreciate while still progressing. Im loving life. Im loving myself. Im loving every moment.
“But it’s hard to stay mad when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once and it’s too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.” — American Beauty