So, Ive been slacking so hard in the comment response department! I just made this big post about how grateful I am to have all of these followers and blah blah blah. Then what do I do? I never get back to all of the wonderful ones that actually take the time to comment on my ramblings. I adore the little notes you all leave, I swear. I can just, at times, be, well, a stingy little bitch! I am truly sorry for this. So! here is my solution! Since I never sit around long enough to always get back to all of you separately, I have been responding below your comments to each of you individually. Not as awesome, I know, but its all Ive got for now! I just thought I would let you all know that I do read and love your comments and want to give you a response! Now you know where it will be! Thanks lovers! 
 

love.

Ongoing...

So I got some flowers at a wedding I was shooting a while ago. They were beautiful and came in a lovely vase. I let them sit on my desk to simply look pretty. They did just that for as long as they could, but then they died. The thing is, they still looked pretty. So, I kept them there. Some thought it was weird, I thought it was beautiful. Then, I noticed one day that they had all fallen in such different and perfect directions and since they had died, they were frozen there. A couple of days ago decided to display them in a different way...on my wall. They are spaced perfectly each looking in a different direction. And now, I am loving them here so much! Who knew how long this little bouquet would bring me so much joy! Its still happening!

What do you think?
 

Zooey...

Call me crazy...

But today, I discovered beauty.

I have always known Miss Zooey to be beautiful.

But I have never noticed just how stunningly beautiful she is...

Am I right or what?

Inspiration...

My Monday...

...so far.


This is S...

Little O...

And Me...

Typical Monday.

100 Followers!!!

well 101 now...

I wanted to make a thank you post if and when I ever got 100 followers, well, I looked up and now I have 101! I am so excited! I love all of my "regulars" that follow along and read all of my junk. I adore the comments, they are always so sweet and encouraging. I really dont know how long I would keep this up if it werent for all of my lovely followers! 

I dont know why ya do it...

But thanks so much!!!

Inspired...

I am feeling so incredibly inspired. The last couple of days have been such a turn around for me. I can breath. I can even see light. I have been busy and happy and thoughtful. I have been crafting and writing and planning. Yes, planning. For the future even. Its been amazing. I am so grateful for my new perspective. I am simply loving life. 

Whirlwind...

Yesterday was a whirlwind. Literately. There was a massive wind storm while I was at work. Trees bent and leaves flew. My first day back to work after a couple of sick days and a weekend had officially kicked my butt. And at the end of the day I had felt as though I was standing out in the middle of the storm rather than watching it through the rain soaked window panes.

But...

When I left work and walked up to my jeep I saw a something taped securely and severely to my window.

It was a mixed CD from the boyfriend with a lovely little note. (BTW his name isnt Don, it is an inside joke we have with CDs.) It was full of hip hop (my fave) and ended with the song from the post below! Perfect! Sometimes I feel like I am the luckiest girl in the world.

You dont always have to lift yourself out of a bad day.

Sometimes, if youre lucky, some one will come along and do it for you.

Life's Soundtrack...

One of my all time favorite songs. 

It takes me over. 

Entirely. 

Every time.

Two...

Adorable or what?

The Rain.

The rain has officially moved in. 
The streets are soaked.
My wipers are on.
There is a permanent umbrella in my bag.
The bottom of my jeans are always wet.
I dont bother doing my hair. 
Yep. The rain is here.

I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am.

-Sylvia Plath

Life's Soundtrack...

I adore this song.

It speaks to me. It moves me. 

Changes my mood in the quickest of seconds. 

Listen.

Learn.

Love.

These Words...

These are words I should quickly and deeply take to heart. My millions of dreams and goals seem to have been pushed even further from my grasp in the last couple of weeks. Ive been stagnant. My mind, my emotions, my actions, all stagnant. All because of my own doings, Im sure. Recognizing that my path has been lengthened by the one and only me, pushes me into an even deeper downward spiral. I need light. Maybe even help. But I want nothing more than to claw myself out and take each stride toward the path of my future on my own. Im independent like that. Almost to a fault. Its what got me here. And Im hoping its what will get me out. I need these words. I need them with me every day. I need to scream them and whisper them into everything I do. I am the only one that can make it happen, make anything happen. I know I can do it. I know I will do it.

In a world where vows are worthless. Where making a pledge means nothing. Where promises are made to be broken, it would be nice to see words come back into power. -Chuck Palahniuk

Life's Soundtrack...

Im loving this right now.

Inspired...

300 Words: Goodbye

Another old 300 Words from class...

Goodbye        

            There is one thing she has to say today and she has never wanted to say anything less than she wants to say this. Her head feels blissfully content resting against his chest. Her arms embrace him loosely as he holds on tight enough for the both of them. The warm damp air sends quick gusts of wind that momentarily cools them and causes the hem of her blue dress to dance.  As she closes her eyes and inhales his familiar scent one of  the tears she had been holding in for so long , seeps out and lands on his deep blue uniform.

            She was a sophomore in high school and she was in love much earlier than she had expected to be. They were serious and things were good, but as his graduation date grew closer so did the questions about next year. He considered a college a few states away and though she was mature for her age, this was a hard concept to grasp. However, she left every decision up to him and asked him not to consider her in his  initial deliberations. As hard as a long distance high school/college relationship sounded, she had no idea what he chose would be the most difficult situation she would ever be placed in.

            After their short summer of adventures and love ended he set off for boot camp. They hadn’t spend more than a weekend apart and there he went for three torturous months with no contact. With only a brief reunion at home he was gone again for more training. With each send-off more and more difficult she was growing weary of her new responsibility feeling far too young to be going through these sorts of things.  However, these practices gave her no assistance in her upcoming goodbye.

            She avoids words as she plays with one of his gold buttons and listens to him chat with his mother and younger sister.  The bus slowly fills up and the crowd begins to dwindle. She doesn’t let go of him. The wind blows sending the palm trees swirling in the heat and gives him some sort of signal because he then whispers, “it’s time.” She stands back and dusts off her blue dress as she watches the tears and hugs flow between a mother, son, and sister. Then he steadily walks towards her she gets anxious, she doesn’t know what to say. She has no idea what to say knowing this could be the last time she sees him. She has no words when he takes her into that perfect embrace and kisses her forehead. He is waiting. She needs to say something.  She isn’t ready. He says, “I love you.”

            She gives her only feasible reply, “I’m not ready.” 

            “Me either,” he answers.

Tips for a better LIFE...

1. Don’t say “yes” when you mean “no.” It’ll make you resentful. Say what you mean and mean what you say.

2. When driving, if someone wants to get in front of you, let him in front of you. And do it with a smile. It’ll make his day better, and it’ll make you feel good. You just changed the world.

3. Try to make a gratitude list each day. Include big things and little things. Invite your friends to make their own lists; you can all email one another each day, sharing your gratitude.

4. Don’t be a problem solver when a friend just wants you to be a listener.

5. Call your parents or grandparents. Sometimes, a five-minute phone call is all they need to feel loved.

6. Be a good neighbor: Be considerate inside and outside your home/apartment so your noise doesn’t bother those around you. That includes opening and closing your front door quietly.

7. Pee in the shower. If we each did this once a day, it would save an enormous amount of water and toilet paper (trees).

8. Write a “fan letter.” Tell someone you know, or someone you’ve never met, why you admire him or her. You’ll make someone’s day.

9. Curb your jealousy. Be happy for others.

10. Be willing to be wrong. If someone has a grievance with you, really try to see her point of view. If called for, apologize. It’s hard to do, but it feels really good and makes life so much easier.

11. If you are in a room with someone you don’t know, introduce yourself right away. It takes away the social discomfort immediately.

12. Pick a cause close to your heart, and get involved. You don’t have to quit your job and dive in headfirst. Just get involved on some level and do what you can when you can. Go slightly beyond your comfort zone but don’t overextend yourself.

13. Be a good friend to your friends. Tell them what’s good about them, that you appreciate them, and make the effort to spend time with them.

14. Go vegetarian. Animals raised and slaughtered for food suffer immeasurably. Visit GoVeg.com for a free vegetarian starter kit.

15. Do your best to think good thoughts. They affect your health, happiness, and the people around you.

16. Do something frivolous for someone you love. (It doesn’t have to be extravagant.) It feels so good to do nice things for other people, it’s almost selfish!

17. Practice accepting compliments. The person complimenting you is giving you a gift. Receive it graciously, even if it is difficult.

18. Be generous with your compliments. Don’t blow smoke up anyone’s ass. Just say nice things when they occur to you.

19. Forgive those who have wronged you. Holding onto anger and resentment poisons your body and your life. There are no benefits in staying mad. Let go. It’s okay.

20. Forgive yourself. It’s okay to be imperfect and to have made mistakes. Try to do better, that’s all.

Tips for a better life by Rory Freedman

My Dream...

A dream.

I could live here forever. 

All I would need is a dog and a cute boy.

Life would be complete.

Can you imagine?

I will be...

Awesome Day 30: Halloween!

Halloween...


Is is one of those holidays? The ones that have all the hype and high expectations for an amazing night but only leave you feeling let down in the end. Im not sure. Last years Halloween was so far the only one that left me completely satisfied. But I think it might be. Like New Years Eve.

The night for me was a success, but, with a lot of buts. We were supposed to hang out with our typical group of friends but they all went to a concert that we werent particularly interested in. Prefunking was fun. Champagne and pizza, but, we lost two of our expected entourage. The first party was fun. It was the boyfriend's friend and he is super awesome and fun to hang out with. But, although the crowd was very nice, it just wasnt our steaze. I felt out of place (which doesnt happen often) and wanted to be with my friends. The second party was fun. An awesome venue with the party guaranteed to grow exponentially throughout the night, but, we both got sleepy and super tipsy. We ended up walking home early, im sure, even though I have no idea what time we left. We wanted to make popcorn and watch The Office, but I passed out before the popcorn was fully popped and the boyfriend passed out before he could eat any of it. I woke up in the morning to a full bowl of popcorn right by my head and my laptop still in the middle of us on the bed. I think we had too high of hopes the entire night. Especially the end of the night.


I really did have a great time the entire night but I think this is the first Halloween I would have rather stayed in to watch a scary movie and gift trick or treaters.

And the boyfriend got me a Halloween Rose!

Im so lucky.

How was your Halloween? What did you dress as?

Awesome Day 29: Craftin 'Stumes!

Being the day before halloween, naturally it was the day to start thinking about a costume. I know, most of you had probably already bought, made and/or carefully planned out your costumes by now. But me? Well, I work better under pressure. So after work I met up with the boyfriend and we were off to buy supplies for our "stumes." We decided to be dinosaurs! We went to goodwill for hoodies and to JoAnns for everything else! Oh how I love JoAnns, the best, possibly biggest craft store in the world!

When we went home to start on them, we found that we were not the only ones still working on stuff. I had an apartment full of crafty halloweeners. I think at one point there was over 10 of us there all working away and fight over the glue guns. It was a beautiful mess! Our dinosaur stumes quickly transformed into monsters and I couldnt be more happy with the out come! I hand stitched each dot (and each dot on each dot) and all of the other wonderful little aspects of my monsta 'stume! The boyfriend gave up a little earlier and ended up hot gluing his spots. They both turned out beautifully!

Scary right?

Awesome Day 28: Twilight Night.

This was an awesome day for many reasons but I am going to straight to the big one! I ended this day with typical, or so I thought, movie night with the boyfriend. The movie....Twilight!

I am officially obsessed! I now get it! I did the same thing with Harry Potter. I made fun of all the followers and then once I finally picked up the book and didnt put it down til I was done. This is turning out to be the same kind of deal. I am officially eating my words and in love with twilight. Even though I broke a major rule of mine, seeing a movie before reading the book, I am hooked. No one ever told me it was a love story! I would have seen it forever ago! I am a sucker for romance and I thought the movie would be full of biting and blood. Man was I wrong! I am embarrassed to say I have had the dvd on repeat since the first viewing. But I dont care. I love it that much.

And the answer is yes, 
I would marry Edward Cullen.