simply beautiful women
this quote
beautiful libraries
great Rumi quotes
a cute colored kitten
unique spaces that make my eyes sing
cool places to hang
heavy eye make up
winter lights
stunning color combos
What do you love tonight?
Tonight I love...
1.05.2011
I cannot tell you what this quote means to me. When I found it, I felt so relieved. It is the closest thing I have ever found that has come close to describing me. I am so serious. This is me. To my core.
1.04.2011
or 2011, A Bad First Impression
or How I spent my New Years Day
New years eve.
I had a very very fun night. Simple with really good friends. My favorite bar and good hiphop to dance to. We ended the night with a bunch of friends at one of their houses. While Rachelle passed out a little early, I thought it would be a good idea to chug some more champagne, for good measure? And eat jalepeno poppers ( I dont like jalepeno poppers) and also yell passionately about science and bacon. Luckily I was with very good friends who didnt judge me for my stupid behavior. Im pretty sure they take me as I am, if not, they are very good at faking it. Anyways, it was a great night and we were put up in a guest bedroom and given the five star treatment including a pitcher of ice water next to the bed. Just what I needed as I shut my eyes and tried not to give in to the spins.
Cut to the next morning. Ugh. I open my eyes, but they stutter a bit as the latches pull apart from each other. I have a bit of where-the-fuck-am-I moment and then it all floods back to me.
Heres the thing. I am what some one might call a hangover case. I get hungover very very easily and its not just a headache or a quick trip to the bathroom in the morning. If im hungover, its ALL DAY. In and out of the bathroom for hours, in pain and not able to stop. Its pretty awful. But, its so weird, sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesnt. I have been down the whole day after just a couple beers, then fine another day after a handfull of vodka redbulls. Its very hit and miss and I hate it. The only pattern I have noticed is that when I am drinking more often, I get hung over less. Not a great realization for some one that is finally coming out of that whole "go out and party every night" stage. Since I stopped drinking as much I tend to get pretty crappy feeling every time. So around the end of october I decided to stop drinking. Even those couple of glasses of wine before bed or a beer at dinner. It wasnt worth it to me any more. I wanted to just take a break so I said Id stop til Thanksgiving (we also have a tradition of going out the night before Thanksgiving). I had no problem with not drinking. I ended up having some drinks and lots of fun when I was home for Thanksgiving and then threw up out of my best friends car as she dropped me off for dinner. Not fun. So I stopped again. Didnt drink at any of the Christmas festivities either. Which is pretty tough if you know what I mean.
Back to the morning. I feel ok. Paul, the friend that put us up and brought us water comes in with a plate of bacon. Apparently I was not fucking around with the bacon comments the night before. And thats when it hit me. I go to the bathroom and it starts. Once it starts I know im in for an all day event. Joy. I get back in bed turn toward Rachelle and she is eating bacon in my face "hi honey." Im not so mad that she is eating bacon in my fucking face when I just barfed in the bathroom, im more mad that she is eating MY bacon. I was the one yelling my head off for bacon last night, making a fool of myself, and risking friend loss. And where was she? Asleep on the couch. She's getting quite the free ride I think as I make my second trip to the toilet.
As you can tell I had decided to drink for New Years. COME ON. What else are you gonna do. I tried hydrating all day in order to avoid throwing my first hours of 2011 away. Didnt work. Obviously. But I knew that since I hadnt been drinking this was a risk I was going to have to take, and I thought the trade off would be worth it. Its just one day.
The rest of my time at Paul was spent cracking jokes and getting filled in on my absurd antics between bathroom breaks. Again, luckily I was in good company. I love my friends. We got a ride back to Rachelles house and thats when things took a turn for me, I got much sicker and felt very dizzy and could barely get out of my best friends bed. This is the worst part. I gets bad before it gets better. Then once I am finally able to fall asleep I know it will be over soon. I woke up from my nap and was so weak I could barely make it out to the couches to be with my friend. I would need a couple more hours to regain strength to make it home, so we watched beauty and the beast and some shows together. She fed me mac and cheese and after a few bites I was done. Finally at 11pm, I went home.
This is what happens to me when I drink. Well, yes, only sometimes, but with out knowing which times it will or will not happen, it has just become too much for me. It is just not worth it to me any more. So there is my long winded way of saying im done drinking. For now. I know myself and I do like to drink up and get down just a little too much to officially swear it off, but for now, im done.
So....
Vodka,
Im sorry. We are not going to be seeing each other for a while. Im done. On a break. Taking some time. I just cant do this any longer. No. No. This isn a line, its really not you, its me. Please take care. Maybe at another place in my life we will work better together, maybe our timing will be right in the future. But for now, youre on your own. Ill miss you, youll miss me, but something tells me youll be picked up right away. Youre a hard one to turn down.
Love always, Lace
or How I spent my New Years Day
I had a very very fun night. Simple with really good friends. My favorite bar and good hiphop to dance to. We ended the night with a bunch of friends at one of their houses. While Rachelle passed out a little early, I thought it would be a good idea to chug some more champagne, for good measure? And eat jalepeno poppers ( I dont like jalepeno poppers) and also yell passionately about science and bacon. Luckily I was with very good friends who didnt judge me for my stupid behavior. Im pretty sure they take me as I am, if not, they are very good at faking it. Anyways, it was a great night and we were put up in a guest bedroom and given the five star treatment including a pitcher of ice water next to the bed. Just what I needed as I shut my eyes and tried not to give in to the spins.
Cut to the next morning. Ugh. I open my eyes, but they stutter a bit as the latches pull apart from each other. I have a bit of where-the-fuck-am-I moment and then it all floods back to me.
Heres the thing. I am what some one might call a hangover case. I get hungover very very easily and its not just a headache or a quick trip to the bathroom in the morning. If im hungover, its ALL DAY. In and out of the bathroom for hours, in pain and not able to stop. Its pretty awful. But, its so weird, sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesnt. I have been down the whole day after just a couple beers, then fine another day after a handfull of vodka redbulls. Its very hit and miss and I hate it. The only pattern I have noticed is that when I am drinking more often, I get hung over less. Not a great realization for some one that is finally coming out of that whole "go out and party every night" stage. Since I stopped drinking as much I tend to get pretty crappy feeling every time. So around the end of october I decided to stop drinking. Even those couple of glasses of wine before bed or a beer at dinner. It wasnt worth it to me any more. I wanted to just take a break so I said Id stop til Thanksgiving (we also have a tradition of going out the night before Thanksgiving). I had no problem with not drinking. I ended up having some drinks and lots of fun when I was home for Thanksgiving and then threw up out of my best friends car as she dropped me off for dinner. Not fun. So I stopped again. Didnt drink at any of the Christmas festivities either. Which is pretty tough if you know what I mean.
Back to the morning. I feel ok. Paul, the friend that put us up and brought us water comes in with a plate of bacon. Apparently I was not fucking around with the bacon comments the night before. And thats when it hit me. I go to the bathroom and it starts. Once it starts I know im in for an all day event. Joy. I get back in bed turn toward Rachelle and she is eating bacon in my face "hi honey." Im not so mad that she is eating bacon in my fucking face when I just barfed in the bathroom, im more mad that she is eating MY bacon. I was the one yelling my head off for bacon last night, making a fool of myself, and risking friend loss. And where was she? Asleep on the couch. She's getting quite the free ride I think as I make my second trip to the toilet.
As you can tell I had decided to drink for New Years. COME ON. What else are you gonna do. I tried hydrating all day in order to avoid throwing my first hours of 2011 away. Didnt work. Obviously. But I knew that since I hadnt been drinking this was a risk I was going to have to take, and I thought the trade off would be worth it. Its just one day.
The rest of my time at Paul was spent cracking jokes and getting filled in on my absurd antics between bathroom breaks. Again, luckily I was in good company. I love my friends. We got a ride back to Rachelles house and thats when things took a turn for me, I got much sicker and felt very dizzy and could barely get out of my best friends bed. This is the worst part. I gets bad before it gets better. Then once I am finally able to fall asleep I know it will be over soon. I woke up from my nap and was so weak I could barely make it out to the couches to be with my friend. I would need a couple more hours to regain strength to make it home, so we watched beauty and the beast and some shows together. She fed me mac and cheese and after a few bites I was done. Finally at 11pm, I went home.
This is what happens to me when I drink. Well, yes, only sometimes, but with out knowing which times it will or will not happen, it has just become too much for me. It is just not worth it to me any more. So there is my long winded way of saying im done drinking. For now. I know myself and I do like to drink up and get down just a little too much to officially swear it off, but for now, im done.
So....
Vodka,
Im sorry. We are not going to be seeing each other for a while. Im done. On a break. Taking some time. I just cant do this any longer. No. No. This isn a line, its really not you, its me. Please take care. Maybe at another place in my life we will work better together, maybe our timing will be right in the future. But for now, youre on your own. Ill miss you, youll miss me, but something tells me youll be picked up right away. Youre a hard one to turn down.
Love always, Lace
My Christmas Highlights
I had a very very good Christmas. I love Christmas time so much. There is just something about this time of year. I simply adore it. Here are some of my favorite parts of my trip home, in order of appearance.
Girls Night In: This year I decided to make all of the gifts for my girlfriends. I made everyone pillows with personal sayings, quotes, or meaningful words, a little piece of framed friendship art and headbands. Giving gifts is my favorite part of Christmas. So I wanted to get all the girls together to at least see each others faces for the holiday, so we put together a somewhat last minute girls night. I am really loving these girls nights! First of all, I have never had a lot of girlfriends. I have always had my Rachelley, since we were 11, and then there were the other few, still very wonderful best friends, but turned out to not be lifers. I have however, always had boys, heaps of guy friends to keep track of. BUT, for the past six months I have grown a pretty radical small but tight group of girls. We are all very different but it works. We are real and true and thats the most important thing. We have started this little tradition of getting the girls together, most often whenever i can come to town since I am the only one up here in Portland. It is simply wonderful. This night was my favorite one so far. Not because everyone loved the gifts i made, but because things got a little crazy. One of my friends sells Pure Romance and brought a few goodies to share with everyone. After about an hour of all of us giggling, getting way to excited and using my favorite word VAGINA almsot too often, Jessica was in her car to go get her full supply. She came back and we were delighted to have a full presentation equipped with free samples, testers and vibrators galore. Oh how I love my uninhibited friends! It was the perfect Christmas gift, since Im pretty sure we all orders ourselves some gifts.
Christmas Eve In: Every year since I was about 16 we have had the same quests for Christmas Eve. My ex-boyfriends family. Weird? Not really. Our families got very close and share a lack of family members in Oregon so a tradition was born. I have a great friendship with my ex and its not awkward at all. This year was especially fun since he and I opened the same present, at the same time, dart guns! It was a race and I won! Then I became OBSESSED with trying to shoot out the flame of one of my mothers candles. Im sad to report my gun was taken away before I succeeded. The night ended with an intense game of UNO (that the boyfriend showed up and join in for, yes, you must be able to hang in my awesome yet sometimes awkward life, and he does) and I tied for first. It was pretty darn fun.
Christmas Eve Out: After Uno, it was time for my other Eve tradition, a night out at The Cooler, one of my favorite bars in Eugene. It is the place where I know everyone that works there and most everyone from my high school frequents it. Over the years it just turns out that all my old friends show up there on Christmas eve. It was low key and fun and full of friends. I loved it.
Christmas Morning: Nothing super special just a solid few hours with my parents, my brother and the dogs! I love time like this with my family, it doesnt happen often enough. Not to mentions my parents stocked me up with all house junk I needed. Lucky girl. And the best part, every one loved their presents from me! yay!
Gordy: So I have this friend. His name is Gordy. He is the best guy ever and has been one of my best friends for years. He is the one that took me in when I moved to Portland and stayed on his couch for just a little too long:) We had a bit of a falling out, not triggered by anything really, just grew apart and things got a little weird as far as making the first move back towards our friendship. BUT, he texted me a Merry Christmas and that was that. I texted back saying lets just meet up (he lives in Seattle now, but his family is in Eugene still) and we did. We met at The Cooler (the only place I knew was open) and had the ultimate catch up sesh! I am so lucky to have some one like Gordy in my life, some one that doesnt want to hear me apologies and wipe the slate clean and calls me his sister. I just feel better knowing he is back in my life like he used to be. This was the best part of my Christmas! Cheesy I know but getting my best friend back was the best gift I received. (yes, you make pause to throw up now)
All in all, a great holiday, and that was just some of it. I love love loved it.
How was your Christmas?
1.03.2011
2. If I drink enough, you will find me yelling BACON somewhere around 3 am.
3. New Years Eve > New Years Day
4. It is officially fucking freezing.
5. Vero is my new favorite coffee shop in Eugene. So cute.
6. My newest friend Jessica's enthusiasm and common love for all things creative makes me so happy.
7. My oldest friend will let me recover in her bed all day and then will pop in the disney movie on VHS that I have been craving for months.
8. Belle is still the disney princess I relate to the most.
9. The Town was such a good movie, I absolutely loved it.
10. I finally found myself attracted to Ben Affleck. Then the attractions doubled once the credits started rolling.
What did you learn this weekend?
12.29.2010
Im so sorry I havent been around much, but I am still knee deep in holiday cheer (and maybe wrapping paper.) This morning I am on my second trip home to Eugene to spend some more time with my bestest and my family. Not quite sure what the plans are for New Years, but you can bet it will be an adventure. I hope you are all enjoying the holidays. I will update soon. Love.
12.21.2010
its freezing today. so I am bundling up and taking off to run my last minute holiday errands. then I am going to cozy back in with puppy and finish making some gifts until it is time to drive home for the holiday. I am getting so excited.
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